Lose It - Week 24

It's obvious from my last two posts that this week was a very hard week for me. Not only was it the anniversary of my Mom's passing, but Aunt Flo was making her monthly visit. So I had two weeks worth of set-backs, but I feel like I've found some motivation to keep going on.

The first was watching this Tuesday's episode of "The Biggest Loser." I made it no secret in this blog how much I hate Tracey. Judging from the comments on Facebook from some of my friends, I'm not the only one. I'm not going to waste my time writing about the things Tracey did that really made me dislike her as a contestant. On Tuesday she was finally eliminated. At the end of each show they showcase how far the eliminated contestant has come since leaving the show. Well, Tracey looked fantastic. I'm happy for her. It seemed like her husband and her four kids really love her. When I figured out how much weight she has lost based on her starting weight and how much weight it says she's lost now, I realized that Tracey now weighs less than me. Only by about 10 pounds, but I can't let a b**ch like Tracey beat me. Tracey reminds me of all the stuck-up, rich, super mean girls I went to school with. This is my motivation to keep going.

The other motivating factor was a visit to the chiropractor. My lower back was killing me, and I just couldn't take it anymore, so I called my chiropractor. I used to see him twice a month, but since money has been tight, I haven't seen him in about 3 months. When he walked out to the waiting room, he was immediately blown away by how much weight I've lost. I've lost it so gradually that I don't think the people who see me every day notice as much as someone who hasn't seen me in 3 months. He mentioned a couple more times how great I look and how much weight I've lost and then asked me how I've been doing it. Just good old fashioned diet and exercise.

So those two things are making me want to continue. In reality, the things that really are keeping me going are improving my health so that I'll be around for a long time for my family.

I stepped on the scale this morning and I didn't lose an ounce. But, I didn't gain anything either. And that is great considering I totally went off the program this week. To be honest, I'm totally comfortable at this weight. All my old clothes fit again. A lot of the old clothes are loose even. So in reality, my goal now is so much more about overall health than weight lost. But the only way to track it is through the pounds.

On to week 25.